I HATE money!

In my house, I am the one who sends the bills off, I am the onle who balances the checkbook, I am the one who buys groceries or whatever else we may need; and so of course, when we have spent too much money, I am the one who is at fault! Jacob and I had a real good weekend. Thursday night, I went and bought groceries; Friday night, we went to Brandon and Linda's and had drinks and food; Saturday, we went to Jonesboro, met Brandon and Linda over there. We went to the Jail, to see a friend, then we went to lunch, then the mall, driving around, a couple other stores and then back to Brandon and Linda's house. We did not spend MUCH money on things, but we are OUT of money. Between buying McDonald's at 1 am Saturday morning, because we were helping Brandon and Linda paint there room and we were hungry, and buying minuntes for both of our phones, buying gas to go to jonesboro, not knowing they were going to want to run around as much as we did, we ended up having to buy MORE gas, going to lunch, got a pair of shorts on CLEARANCE at JcPenney's, we are OUT of money. Even though it was a joint effort in spending the money, it's MY fault. And of course, its all my fault because I bought a pair of shorts for $10.00.
I went grocery shopping on Thursday; Jacob did not go with me. So I bought some of the things I thought we needed. I did not buy meats; number one that can get expensive; number two when I do it ends up being something we don't want; and number three we don't have room in the freezer. I always buy those things as we need them. Well, Jacob woke up this morning and said he was hungry, I said eat something, and his response was, we don't have anything! He told me I did not get anything to eat while I was at the grocery store. So now, it's my fault, we don't have groceries.
Utilty has been going back and fourth about lay off. They were talking about laying off for the WHOLE week for the fourth of July. I don't know what they latest decision on that was. All I know, is that its ridiculous. Jacob doesn't get paid if he is not working. He was laid off for three mondays in a row. That hurts the paycheck. I told him to go look for a job, but he said they will find out and fire him. So instead, we are SOL(SHIT OUT OF LUCK)!!! I have a job, I am sorry that I don't get to work through the summer and I don't get paid through the summer!
I am just so tired of everything being blamed on me! It gets old. It's my fault, we have no money, my fault we have no groceries, my fault I have no job.

POOL

JUST SO EVERYONE KNOWS I HAVE SPENT MORE THAN FOUR HOURS TOTAL IN THE POOL TODAY!!! :D

Father's Day

As we all know, yesterday was Father's day, and me, the person who talks to my dad on the phone EVERYDAY, did NOT talk to my dad yesterday!?!?! I thought about it, but everytime I did, I was busy, or figured he was busy! What kind of daughter forgets to call her father on father's day; especially when I talk to him EVERYDAY!!! That type of daughter would be me. I feel really bad. You know, I have an older brother, and growing up he was IT!!! He could do not wrong and I could do know right! Everyone who knows my family, knows that! I was always in trouble, and always had to do the chores and always had to cook and stay home and help with things, while my brother on the other hand, did WHATEVER he wanted! I could care less, you know, he's my brother and I'm the sister. The girls, never get as much lein way! But thats fine! Well, my dad and I never argued, we just did not get along. I did not HATE my dad, but I disliked him VERY much. I was SO ready to grow up and move out. So ready to get away from him. Well, the first time I got the chance to do that, was when I was going to move to St. Charles with my aunt and uncle and get a job and go to college. I was so ready, had all my stuff packed and ready. Well, the weekend before, dad made me mad, and I went in my room and started cleaning , like I always did when I was mad. He came in there to give me something and I was upset and crying. He asked me what was wrong and I told him that I was tired of being treated the way I was being treated. He mumbled something and walked out! That UPSET me even more, that I had just upset my dad. Well, dad walked back in and said something, with tears running down his face and walked out again. I felt HORRIBLE. I was a HORRIBLE daughter. What kind of daughter would make her father cry; especially when the only other time I had EVER seen him cry was when my grandmother passed away. Well, I walked out to where he was and told him I was sorry and gave him a hug. . . it was sad. Well, in the pass three years my dad and I have gotten REALLY close. Before I got married, I spend a lot of the days at Jacob's house. Well, dad went by Jacob's house on his way home, so he would always stop by and see me; even though I would be home that night. It was great, we had a lot of conversations, if I ever needed help, dad would help me with whatever it was. When I got married, Jacob and I decided to move here to Paragould. We were living in Paragould, and I went back to Doniphan to get some stuff. I stopped by McDonald's and got some lunch for dad and I and took it to him at the sawmill. When I left, I cried almost all the way home. As I said earlier, Dad and I talk everyday. He has learned how to use yahoo messenger, so most nights we get on and talk and play some pool. He is even learning how to text message! :D It's great.

I've been pretty bored lately. With school being out and all. All I have to do anymore, is clean and sit around and think. And trust me, thinking is not good for me. I start listening to country music and I get all depressed and then there is no one around for me to talk to! Its horrible. Sometimes, I just want to sit here and cry, and sometimes I do! I have though about a job, but we are going on vacation soon so I would just have to quit anyways, cause once we get back I go back to work. I have also thought about going to the nursing home and volunteering to just sit with some of the people there that are lonely. I have thought seriously about it, but then I think about my grandpa. My grandpa passed away this year, and it's been hard. Whenever I see older people, it reminds me of him. And it's hard. I miss him so much and I wish he wasn't gone. But, that's out of my hands. I don't know what I'm going to do. I am taking a home study course, and that keeps me somewhat busy, but at the same time, I can't work on that ALL day!

Well,

I have not been on this thing in awhile! I have signed in and started a blog, but seeing that I have a pretty boring life, I can never come up with anything to say! It's summer time for me, school is out and so of course I'm not working! Pretty boring. I don't get paid, but of course, I go to work and do things that need to get done! Well, last year, at work, I had the back office, this year we have a new principal, Mrs. Warren, she is wonderful; well we decided that she wanted the back office and I get the new office. So Bryan and I started moving desk and setting up the office. We of course, had to make it fun like everything else! We have a tendancy of picking on each other, and Bryan is somewhat a bigger guy. We were starting to take the desk through the door and we had set it upright and I asked if it would fit(I meant height wise) and then not thinking I said well if you can fit then of course the desk can fit.......WHOA, came out ALL wrong! We then moved the computer and got it all set up. Well, my office is ALMOST done. I have to find a cabinet. Speaking of finding a cabinet; Bryan and I went to a few flea markets the other day. We found a cabinet that we liked, but we didn't buy it cause we wanted to make sure we wouldn't find a better one. So we kept looking, we went to about three other flea markets and then to his storage cause he had one in there, which by the way did not work. Not to change the subject or anything, but we got to his storage and (he has two) we looked in one, no cabinet, we looked in the other, well, we saw the cabinet, but decided it would not work. So, we are fixing to leave, and what by his wonderful eyes does he find?!?! What you ask......a TRIPOD!!! A TRIPOD for a camera!!! Well, I just got a new camera, well guess what, now I have a TRIPOD!!! And its not a cheap on. Anyways, back to the looking for the cabinet. We decided that since Jacob was getting of work, that I had better get home and see him and so we decided we would go Friday. Well, Friday came along and I went to work and did a few things, and somehow I made Bryan mad. Well, he left, I thought he left cause I made him mad, but no he went to take his son to lunch. So, I called and called and texted and EVERYTHING trying to get a hold of him. I finally gave up, thinking he was just mad at me and wasn't talking to me. Well, I FINALLY got a text message from him later that night. He fell asleep! HA! So we decided that we will go next week!

Well, so, Friday night we went to Brandon and Linda's house and had some pizza and drinks[soda ;) ] Well, it was storming, and VERY pretty! We had a great time. Somewhere around 12, some raccoons started coming out, and at first they were very skiddish, but by the end of the night, and two packages of crackers later, they were walking around us like it was no big deal! But, it was pretty awesome. Well, a friend of mine and Linda's will be going to jail on Monday, and so we were trying to get some "FUN" pictures together, for him to take and help him get through the time! We had a BLAST!!! Although, after taking some pictures, we decided that the way my hair was and the shirt I was wearing....I looked like a Pentecost!?!?!?!